Sunday, December 18, 2011

just another ordinary day

Been on a fights. How can i lie with my heart?those days and these days.

I totally cannot choose one.Disaster!

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Wednesday, December 14, 2011

not in mood

I felt really sad these days. Felt lije wanna go back kampong. I hate all d ppl here. I miss my mom n siblings. Theres only a family who willing to understand, kept acceptin u d way u are, even d weakest n worst person u are. I wanna leave all tis shit. I really wanna go back home

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Thursday, December 1, 2011

move on to a new environment

Nitenite.i am movin to a new workin place at sri petaling on monday.will be stayin home at bangi after i guess frens bcame more or less left. Nvm i hope u all pray d new envi will fit<3

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Monday, November 28, 2011


Belajar mjd manusia yg organized~ buat jadual!!
sO here goes~~

ni semua buat pakai paint. conteng tgn. Sbb nye the needs to have the schedule wuz so high.
Fightin! Off to work! Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Only GOD knew why~

Terlalu byk permintaan

Aku nak cpt siap keje tp aku lyn bende ni
Aku nak cpt habis assesment sbb aku da mls nk pk!
Aku nak duit, lately broke nak mati
Aku lapar, aku nak makan (mee goreng ade x kol 4pg?)
Aku nak blk umah (cuti tp xleh balik sbb byk keje!!:'( )
Aku nak kawan satu kepala, sbb mcm xde org phm aku( tgk jamni sape ade seblah aku? hantu je , tu sbb becakap ngn skrin nh)
Aku nak friend indeed sbb sume mcm chipsmore~
Aku nak mak aku
Aku nak sambal ikan bilis petai panas-panas( hahahaha)
Aku nak kereta!
Aku nak gaji woi!
Aku nak allowance
Aku nak org replace aku tuk 3 bln kat baiduri nh, xmuncul2 lg!
Aku nak tutti frutti, sangat2
Aku nak gi tandas
Plg serius,
Aku nak berubah
Sadarkan aku : )

Only GOD knew why~

I just dont get it

This sec, still cannot sleep. Melayan perasaan sendiri yang meroyan cm haram. U think i am blind? I cannot see u there, online? How dare u do this to me.Act like u dont see, u stone heart! I know im nothing to you. But....ok! no reason. Just why my mind keep reminding me about you dammit! Sighhh~~ i still have a lot of work to do, even this hours, but ur image disturbed my focus +_+, n i stopped doing my tons of working design! Please go away, I am sick of u that act like don't care. What else i can say? I just talking to myself. Because nobody can solve this unfinished probs. Huh

Only GOD knew why~

I love this song very much!

because i dont know why

i just love the melody
 : )

Only GOD knew why~

Friday, November 25, 2011


Haluhalu. Harini mcm xnk tido sbb rindu zmn xtdo time study dulu:P. Alhamdulillah, life is getting tougher nowadays. Selepas bergraduasi,tepakse(ikhlas)menjalani idop sbg seorang pekerja dan bukan petido atau pelepak atau pengkid(ttp xnk penganggur) . To be able to be multitask designer (chewah), aku sanggup terima offer footwear design dan bekerja tanpa gaji walaupun broke xhengat selama 10bln tanpa dibayar ttp dibayar yuran kursus itu sbyk 20k! Lg xsmpi seminggu final project n lepastu beram dr Shah Alam to Sri petaling for the practical at the factory. Time n tides waits fr no men! I love the challenge and i hope to anywhom read this, pray for me ya! Mane tau rezki kt sini, aminn. To be continued........

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long time no see

I miss blogging. But i dun have much time to do so. Will starting to write again soon!:)

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Friday, June 17, 2011

The words cannot describe!!

O Allah feel like crying!
The words cannot describe, to express the extremely happiness built in my heart and how im so thankful, praised, U always giv me all this rewards...Alhamdulillah..after all the hardwork..the strength, to not to giv up 4 every obstacles ive been thru..U give me the BEST!! Thank u ALLAH...Thanks to all of u who supported me all this while...Ive grown up! Im strong! This finally giv me a strongest confidence ever for my next step in life!! Alhamdulillah :D

Only GOD knew why~

Tuesday, June 14, 2011


Come and Goes
Only the best remains
The scars stay
currently listening KEANE
Some how their songs tell the truth
"We might as well be strangers"
The fact that 
"Everybody's changing"
U are not hoping for the last man on earth
to persuasively be according to ur faith
Deym it
People really change!
One time u cud see ppl like dis..but unfortunately 
possibly a month will change the person not like u know before
So stop hoping and thinking u knoe sumone best!
Cus ure only hoping 4 a mad grasshopper!

Only GOD knew why~

Sunday, May 1, 2011

4:11am at d studio

Currently listening to Tegar Rossa,
missing sumone
Suddenly remembering..
lusa deg show.
Aku mesti kuat
: )

p/s: I did it 4 good

Only GOD knew why~

Monday, April 25, 2011

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Its not easy as said to be.


Its not easy to be appreciated.

Its true ppl once said
" ur level of knowledge will determined how ppl will respect u"

Earlier o later. 

I hope i can do it

Striving more

Only GOD knew why~


Seriously damn shit. 
Wut makes me wait n search 4 u everyday!
Sadly, (my boundaries forced me not to go farther with the talking)
Shit happens
I hate myself 4 knowing u
Treat me like toy. came n walk away suddenly
: (

Only GOD knew why~

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

One happy family at Home

Life's a broken glass
who knows?
the heart only belongs to the Almighty God
Time only can tell
But it dun revealed

The past is gone
The present is now
The future is farther
When only i can see
But can't tell why

They missed each other
They loved each other
They wanted each other
They needed each other

But all we can see only a repeating words
A silly sentence
A stupid laugh
It were all looking empty

But it left a thousand interpretation
a love, a value, a missing
To have to pretend
One happy family at home

Who knows?
We'r broken inside
We'r fighting with our internal feeling
We miss all this
We miss to be together in one
We love our family

But we have to comply God destiny
A broken glasses
A family that separated
N be one happy family in a wooden frame

Only GOD knew why~

Thursday, February 17, 2011

to be truth

how young people want to respect for older ppl then they were if the older ppl do not show a good role? behave like childish. shame and annoying! more older but doesn't have any type of characteristics that can make ownsev proud, but getting rusty and rusty everyday~

Sorry to say, not to want to honor you

see your own behavior before see other's weakness okay?

be on the other side
Even its younger than u, u shud learn something
let me give u some guidelines~

You have the ability to bond with your students, to understand and resonate with their feelings and emotions. To communicate on their level. To be compassionate with them when they are down and to celebrate with them when they are up.

Positive Mental Attitude
You are able to think more on the positive and a little less on the negative. To keep a smile on your face when things get tough. To see the bright side of things. To seek to find the positives in every negative situation. To be philosophical.

Open to Change
You are able to acknowledge that the only real constant in life is change. You know there is a place for tradition but there is also a place for new ways, new ideas, new systems, and new approaches. You don't put obstacles in your way by being blinkered and are always open and willing to listen to others' ideas.

Role Model
You are the window through which many young people will see their future. Be a fine role model.

You are able to motivate your students by using creative and inspirational methods of teaching. You are different in your approach and that makes you stand out from the crowd. Hence the reason why students enjoy your classes and seek you out for new ideas.

Sense of Humour
You know that a great sense of humour reduces barriers and lightens the atmosphere especially during heavy periods. An ability to make your students laugh will carry you far and gain you more respect. It also increases your popularity.

Presentation Skills
You know that your students are visual, auditory or kinaesthetic learners. You are adept at creating presentation styles for all three. Your body language is your main communicator and you keep it positive at all times. Like a great orator you are passionate when you speak. But at the same time you know that discussion and not lecturing stimulates greater feedback.

You know that the aggression, negative attitudes and behaviours that you see in some of your students have a root cause. You know that they are really scared young people who have come through some bad experiences in life. This keeps you calm and in control of you, of them and the situation. You are good at helping your students de-stress.

You know that no one is more important in the world than anyone else. You know that everyone has a place in the world. You respect your peers and your students. Having that respect for others gets you the respect back from others.

You know that you can change a young person's life by helping them to realise their potential, helping them to grow, helping them to find their talents, skills and abilities.

You are passionate about what you do. Teaching young people is your true vocation in life. Your purpose in life is to make a difference.

Process Oriented
You are able to set practical, achievable and trackable goals for your students. You value the use of structure in what you do.

Willing to Learn
You are willing to learn from other teachers AND your students. Although knowledgeable in your subject you know that you never stop learning.

Acknowledge the best to teach and learn
You know that students learn best when they are involved in the experience. You know that talking with them rather than at them produces the best results.

Willing to Learn
You are willing to learn from other teachers AND your students. Although knowledgeable in your subject you know that you never stop learning.

And if u dun have even least of them, dun dream of being a lect, u just a fake plastic who dun observed.
Because a teacher was a second mother to us~

Only GOD knew why~

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I hide the emotion thru my contextual visual art


 i am currently painting this : )

Only GOD knew why~

Saturday, February 12, 2011

wake up!

can u stop treating FACEBOOK like a whole life
can u?
u promised to lay over thr 4 only 2hrs max a day
But its almost half a day everyday!
Hey farina
do u hear me?
Stop playing around and do ur research now!
Urgently u need to submit ur thesis tomorrow
Yes now!

owh peliz i dun want to be fb addict once again!

Only GOD knew why~

Thursday, February 10, 2011

to my tiny self

I felt like writing something..a lot kind of things..i want to spit from the brain .. 
but eventually all turns to enough ..!
 all were god destiny that who ever always come with difficult time and unfortunate were kind of person who God act love  . 
so that we always learn to find our true selves and be grateful .. thank God .. I'm a part of it ..
I just hurt .. im angry ..  so hateful..stupid ..annoying.. dumb busted
..I'm gone just a piece of time .. after i advised u the day before 
n u did wrong to my family 
how dare n i dunno d truth 
That just i know
ni leave it to God to punish all ur violent acts
n thank God my family is back
peaceful n love

Only GOD knew why~

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

my life start at ten

10 Eat n eat
11  Work one
12     Work two
1          Junk.drink
2          Work three
3          Work four

nvr felt lik putting a schedule
out of plan . never ever tot act!
but act..
i really love it like tis!

y dun we think of creating one everyday? 
very systematic yet simple planner to bear in mind: )

Only GOD knew why~

Monday, February 7, 2011


Too much to absorb in mind

I want to break free

I want to clear the mind

Can i?

Only GOD knew why~

Sunday, January 30, 2011

ingat aku ingat kau ingat kita-peringatan skali lalu~

Repost from my buddy blog i follow
miss Nadzirah Ramdzan...

 Tafsir aayatul quran

Demi waktu dhuha.
Dan demi malam apabila telah sunyi
Tuhanmu tidak meninggalkanmu, dan tidak pula membencimu
dan sungguh yang kemudian itu lebih baik bagimu daripada yang permulaan.
Dan sungguh, kelak Tuhanmu pasti memberikan kurniaNya kepadamu, sehingga engkau menjadi puas.
Bukankah Dia mendapatimu sebagai seorang yatim, lalu Dia melindungimu.
Dan Dia mendapatimu sebagai seorang yang bingung, lalu Dia memberikan petunjuk.
Dan Dia mendapatimu sebagai seorang yang kekurangan, lalu Dia memberikan kecukupan.
Maka terhadap anak yatim janganlah engkau berlaku sewenang-wenang.
Dan terhadap orang yang meminta-minta, janganlah engkau mengherdiknya.
Dan terhadap nikmat Tuhanmu, hendaklah engkau nyatakan dengan bersyukur. 
(ad-Duha : 1~11)

Only GOD knew why~

Saturday, January 29, 2011

I need moree seconds...

Sometimes i felt that..
I dont have much time tu divide into
family..friends..and STUDY!!
Of coz there were so little tiny flow of time left
for MYtinySELF!!
at my condition and situation that nobody know
for everyone was expecting me to fulfill every wish..purr-fectly
How im gonna deal with this
Im arrogant, i am selfish, i am less helpful
but do u guys helping me that i was helpless?
In whatever and whichever section of what i am catching for
my studying
Everyone looking forward for my action
and i am, myself
hav to deal with so much trials n challenges in my studying
that i was chasing my brighter days
That i want to break my limit
Can we people work together in two ways?
Not just ask me to this and that without askin?
Thank you

Tis is not to mention as my sacrifices o what
But i just need more and more time
more support
more understanding
want to pray to God
Please let people understand love friends..,my love lovely people..
Dun judge me..dun simply put a recognition on me
Dun hope for too much in me
U know what i am doin
I am do my best
I know what i am doin
U don't have to know it...
but u will see it..
Only time will tell
Rabbi yassir wala tu assir

Only GOD knew why~

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Love story

Where do I begin to tell the story
Of how great a love can be
The sweet love story that is older than the sea
The simple truth about the love she brings to me
Where do I start

With her first hello
She gave a meaning to this empty world of mine
There'd never be another love another time
She came into my life and made the living fine
She fills my heart

She fills my heart
with very special things
With angel songs, with wild imaginings
She fills my soul with so much love
That any where I go
I'm never lonely
With her along who could be lonely
I reach for her hand. It’s always there

How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now but this much I can say
I know I'll need her until the stars all burn away
And she'll be there

How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now but this much I can say
I know I'll need her until the stars all burn away
And she'll be there

♥ ♥ ♥

Only GOD knew why~


Kau ni kurang cerdik..

Ade mase nak berubah , tak gune
Ade peluang berubah , tak buat

Bile kepahitan kau rasa,
Kau salahkan orang

Bila kebahagiaan kau mau,
Kau sia-siakan

Ape yang kau nak?

Mengapa pengalaman lalu tak mengajar kau?

Kelakar. Sumpah
Kerana kau sendiri merosakkan masa depan dengan angkara kau sendiri

Aku mcm menyampah dengan manusia ni
Benci pon ade
Seorang manusia yang mengulangi kesilapan lalu berulang kali
Tak rasa ke aku memerhati, atau tak pun orang lain
Kawan-kawan mungkin?
Teruskan la permainan perasaan kau tuh
Bila kau nak matang ha?

Only GOD knew why~